Posts filed under “Migraine”
Migraine: a journal sample
May 19, 2018 I want to get up every day and feel okay or even well. To have energy and some expectation of getting things done. I don’t want to be disabled. I feel like life is passing me by, like I don’t do anything, like my life doesn’t matter. I say that I know […]
Motivation comes after action
“Thoughts influence behavior, which influences outcome, which in turn feeds back into your thoughts.” via Guest Post: Breaking The Low Mood Cycle | Captain Awkward One day when I was feeling particularly terrible about migraine and all the things I want to do and can’t, I made a big list called “There’s always something I […]
My doctor doesn’t know as much as they think they do
Doctors are so bad at listening to their patients that my doctors thought I didn’t have migraine or was bad at reporting my symptoms for more than a decade because it didn’t present the way they expected. They convinced me that I wasn’t having migraine and one of the most compelling arguments is that my […]
It is endured and then it is gone and you wish it had been so much more
Given the ease with which health infuses life with meaning and purpose, it is shocking how swiftly illness steals away those certainties. It was all I could do to get through moment to moment, and each moment felt like an endless hour, yet days slipped silently past. Time unused and only endured still vanishes, as […]
Ill living
Once, when I was much much younger, I told someone I trusted that every day I chose to live. I thought this person might understand something of what it was to live with chronic migraine. But they ordered a wellness check and our interactions turned achingly distant and coldly professional. I am reading the October […]
Borborygmus: the silliest migraine symptom
A long, twisting whine woke me up at 2am today. Startled, my disorientation gave way to exasperated embarrassment as I realized the sound was emanating from my own abdomen. Sleep-fuddled and with no sensation associated with the sound, it took me a few minutes. Migraine induces gastric stasis – this is part of the reason […]
Botox is not a treatment for anxiety and depression and do not fucking tell me to meditate my migraine away
People act like I get migraines because I’m pissed off and sad and don’t exercise enough, but I actually am pissed off and sad and don’t exercise enough because I get too many fucking migraines. The framing of research on migraine co-morbidities kills me. People with migraine, especially chronic migraine, tend to have a bunch […]