Gravity's Rainbow

botany, shoes, books, and justice

September 22, 2014
by sarcozona

The bigger the crime, the less time

In 1969, there were 502 convictions for tax fraud. Such cases, called “white-collar crimes,” usually involve people with a good deal of money. Of those convicted, 20 percent ended up in jail. The fraud averaged $190,000 per case; the sentences averaged seven months. That same year, for burglary and auto theft (crimes of the poor) 60 percent ended up in prison. The auto thefts averaged $992; the sentences averaged 18 months. The burglaries averaged $321; the sentences averaged thirty-three months.

1969. From Howard Zinn’s A People’s History of the United States

Verifiability, truth, and hearsay: feminist point of view on the Geek Feminism wiki

After a Puzzling Pause, the Gender Revolution Continues.
Interesting point about overwork fueling the wage gap

Abstract Parisian Rooftops Photographed by Michael Wolf

Artist Hinke Schreuders Alters 1950s Advertising and Fashion Photography with Hand-Stitched Embroidery

Surreal Worlds Digitally Painted by Gediminas Pranckevicius

Francis Fukuyama’s ‘Political Order and Political Decay’

Lawns waste far more water than pools, and use about as much as drought-tolerant…

Distributional Economic Health

Stop Pretending that Liberals are Just as Anti-Science as Conservatives
Huh. I definitely thought anti vaxxers were a liberal thing.

Military Sexual Assault: Male Survivors Speak Out
Military rape culture and lack of care for male victims

September 17, 2014
by sarcozona


I minored in math in undergrad. In about the second week or third week of each math course, I would strongly consider dropping, convinced I wasn’t clever enough to pass.

I made a B in one of those courses and an A in every other.

No matter how many math courses I took, I still had that stomach-dropping panic that I was going to fail the course the first time I didn’t immediately understand something.

I really wish I could talk myself out of this ridiculous mental habit. It does not help me learn new math, not at all.

September 15, 2014
by sarcozona

Everyone but the rich white dudes knows what’s up

In May 1967, the Pentagon historians write: “McNaughton was also very deeply concerned about the breadth and intensity of public unrest and dissatisfaction with the [Vietnam] war … especially with young people, the underprivileged, the intelligentsia and the women.”

1967.  From Howard Zinn’s A People’s History of the United States

Stuff worth reading

All Our Sad Stories
Yes, we too often discount the effects of emotional abuse. I like to walk loudly, in shoes that clack, because I was not allowed to make a sound when I walked.

All The Comments on Every Recipe Blog

Canada’s anti-counterfeiting bill stalled by US demand for removal of humanitarian safeguards

Mental health workers and depression.
Depression as invasive and external. Depression as something that can be cast out.

What is Privacy?
“As a result of the destabilization of social spaces, what’s shocking is how frequently teens have shifted from trying to restrict access to content to trying to restrict access to meaning.” Teenagers do the internet better, first

September 10, 2014
by sarcozona

Preliminary data

I looked up at the iv bag, half empty now, wondering when or if it would work. The drug dripping coldly into my arm was one familiar to me. In the past, it had made me writhe across the bed in a confused panic. Now they knew about that side effect and gave me something to counteract its awful effects first. It made me groggy, heavy, but did nothing for the pain.

Eight days earlier I’d made the decision to lower my dose of topamax by 25mg. Topamax was making me stupid, but it was also helping my migraines. I thought perhaps the drug and I could come to some sort of agreement. Almost immediately after lowering the dose, I began to write again. I opened my PhD proposal and picked away at my advisor’s comments. I did my duty over at Tenure, She Wrote. I parsed my feelings about topamax. While I wasn’t working full days, I had ideas and I wanted to express them. The fog was lifting.

I still had migraines nearly every day, of course. But they were manageable. At first.

On Friday morning, my head hurt. It wasn’t very bad. I put the pain aside, slowly went through my morning routine, and visited my counsellor. We talked about my compromise with topamax, my hope, and strategies for working with pain. I was tired after my appointment, and then the pain got bad. I waited four days to go to urgent care.

On Sunday afternoon, I thought I was winning. While I couldn’t look at anything for very long without it starting to wobble, and I couldn’t feel my arms, the pain was only moderate. I decided I was well enough to go to a celebratory lunch my supervisor was hosting for an old graduate student. Everyone cheerfully asked me about my research. I painfully stumbled through poor explanations, evasive answers. How could I tell these people I’ve been too sick to work for months at a sunny afternoon lunch? People had exciting ideas they wanted me to incorporate into my project. My migraine scrambled brain couldn’t make heads or tails of them. Everything was too loud and too bright and moving too fast. When I spoke, I could tell something was wrong with my affect – the timing was wrong or the volume. I left as soon as I could. That night, things got bad again and the next afternoon I went to urgent care.

When the nurse inserted the iv, my vein spurted blood. I didn’t know until I got home and found my hospital wristband soaked red. Perhaps that explains why I had such a strong reaction immediately after they inserted the needle. I thought I would faint, then vomit, then I was hot and cold, then I shook, violently, for 10 or 15 or a thousand minutes. I remember my boyfriend’s hand, strong and comforting on my back as I hunched over a cardboard tray and twisted with nausea. I also remember his worried eyes as I was wracked with tremors that only exacerbated the pain.

Being healthier doesn’t just make my life better. My illness is difficult for my caretakers and others who love me. It’s massively inconvenient for my coworkers. My illness can destroy relationships or change them into relationships I don’t like – where I’m buried under my illness and the relationship revolves around caretaking. The longer I’m ill, the more isolated I become and the more difficult things become for individual caretakers. Just three months ago, I would have been able to call any of three people to accompany me to urgent care. But two of those people have since moved away, and I’ve been too ill to develop new, strong relationships. I had just one person I was comfortable calling on Monday.

After a few hours of iv drugs and fluids, the pain wasn’t as bad. They sent me home with instructions to sleep it off and come back the next day if it got bad again. I woke up the next day in pain, but not that bad. So I muddled on.

I haven’t gotten that sick again, but I haven’t felt very well at all. My day-to-day pain level is higher than it was before I dosed down. But my mind is clearer. If I work in short increments and nap or meditate often, I think I can actually be somewhat productive.

I feel frightened and disappointed by the results of my experiment with topamax so far. The higher pain levels and migraine symptoms don’t leave me much energy for living. I haven’t run once since I dosed down and social engagements take more energy. Will my migraines be too bad at a low dose of topamax? Will I have to sacrifice more of my social life or hobbies to do my PhD? But there are reasons not to despair. It is nice to know so definitively that so much of the brain fog was caused by topamax. Perhaps the terrible migraine was a fluke: the bad migraine came at the end of my menstrual cycle and while I was suffering a great deal of dental pain, which are both big triggers.

On October 1st, I’m going to talk to my GP about all of this and make a decision about topamax with a month’s worth of data in hand. Wish me luck.

September 9, 2014
by sarcozona

While you’re waiting for the bus

Stuff worth reading

A brash tech entrepreneur thinks he can reinvent higher education by stripping it down to its essence, eliminating lectures and tenure along with football games, ivy-covered buildings, and research libraries. What if he’s right?
This school sounds like a nightmare for someone with disabilities.

More on Philosophy’s ‘White Man’ Problem

How Racism Creeps Into Medicine.

The Arab world is still trying to sort out the unfinished business of the Ottoman Empire
Largely ignores the terrible meddling of the West, but good stuff

Tiny Embroidered Animals by Chloe Giordano

The Vanishing Yezidi of Iraq


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A $10,169 blood test is everything wrong with American health care

Come On Down to Smile Bitch Training Camp

Supercomputers make discoveries that scientists can’t.
Last line is a kicker